Brett asked me a deceptively simple question in the comments last week, and I’ve been thinking about it for days. He asked:
“What would it look like to go from curious/seeking to ‘faith’? In other words, what would you be leaping to?”
I think that I’ve deviated slightly from the questions original intent, but the path that it has set me on has been concerned with looking at when a person can make the call of ‘Yep, Ok, I’m all God-ded up and I’m calling myself a Christian‘ or ‘That’s it; there’s no way at all any of this resonates with me. I’m out.’
Because I have to say I’ve made the latter decision twice this year (but clearly I never flounce for long), but not once have I felt close to the first.
Even though I have had to work through, and give up on, my obsession with getting concrete proof ( which I think I’ve managed to wean myself off), there is going to have to be some kind of paradigm shift within to enable me “…to go from curious/seeking to ‘faith’…”
I could either continue with self-indulgent whinging (in which case both you and I are going to become very bored very quickly) or I could have a good hard look at the type of faith I am hoping to come to, and what I can do to bring that about.
I know that the ‘good Christian’ response would probably be to wait and in the fullness of time/God’s plan, I will understand, etc.
But I’m not a good Christian, am I 😉