I went along to see an internationally renowned psychic last week. I attended one of his seminars last year aswell and it was one of the deciding factors that pursuaded me to finally attend church.
I haven’t written about it, because I didn’t know how it would be received. I’m a people-pleaser, you see. I want to make everyone happy and I want everyone to like me.
(Which clearly isn’t working for me, because everyone doesn’t like me, and I seem to be surviving perfectly well. So maybe it’s not a big deal after all.)
There have been a few other things that I have considered writing about, but haven’t. Which is directly going against what seems to be my specific niche (I admit that I’ve researched what makes a ‘good blog’ and finding your particular niche seems to be quite high on the list of must haves). The feedback that I have received, both from emails (ok, email. Singular) and in some comments has been that people appreciate my emotional honesty.
On a side note, I have tried many times through our my life to keep an diary and every time, when I have reflected back on it, I have been mortified by what I see as my self indulgence and wankery and have ripped it up. That’s why I begun to write a public blog. Firstly, I don’t feel as self-conscious when someone else is reading it and secondly, no ripping up allowed. Theres no way that this post would still be in one piece if it were in a diary, believe me.
Anyway, the censoring issue. I am so grateful of the support that I have received from the readers here, many of whom are Christians. I’ve been wanting to write about a couple of topics (psychics, ghosts and the attraction of other religions) but have felt reticent to do so because of my desire not to put people off or to be judged. Not that anyone has implied that this would happen, it’s just me second guessing myself.
But given that what I’m trying to do is sort out my own thoughts and also to hear about other people journeys then I need stop thinking about what people ‘want’ to hear, and record what I am genuinely thinking about. So, psychic/ghosty post to follow.