So the other day I was getting into one of my BUT WHAT DOES IT ALL MEEEEAN?? tizzies. And although I nearly completely definitely believe in god, I realised that I don’t live my life as if I do.
And then I though ‘How does someone live their life as if they really and truly believe in god in a life shaking and world changing way?’.
And then I decided to meditate on what it actually means but clearly I feel asleep because that’s what happens when I start my meditations at 10pm
And the next morning, when I went out to buy a (fairtrade) cup of coffee I saw the following Zen proverb (I think it was in The Guardian but I’m not sure)
Before enlightenment, chop wood carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood carry water.
And I laughed and laughed at my own earnest ridiculous and went home to hug my children.